Photographing to Remember?
Friday, February 8th, 2008I heard numerous times in photo school students say something along the lines of “I photograph to remember.” I think that is an admirable thing to say, but for me it is probably one of the most difficult things to do.
I have been trying to read some of the accounts at The Photographs Not Taken, and while I have not yet gotten through all of them, the one’s I have read seem to focus on memory (which I guess it the point). Try as I might, I cannot actually get a true sense of the photograph that the person didn’t make. Instead I get an understanding of the moment and the memory. This is not a criticism of the entries or the project at all, but rather an observation and starting point for this blog entry.
I have tried and failed at attempting to photograph for memory. Yes, I have taken family snap shots, and even made some more serious photographic attempts to remember. I have often found that when attempting to photograph to remember the camera or the very act of photographing gets in the way of the first hand experience. What I read that was so interesting at The Photographs Not Taken was a fantastic sense of the moment.
As humans, we seem to have fairly good memories. I can remember in vivid detail very specific moments from my childhood, but I cannot describe it like I would if I was looking at a photograph. My memory seems to sharpen itself when I talk with family and friends about shared memories, suddenly things become clearer. What I am trying to say is, that while photographs can help us remember they are not the same as the memories themselves. And remembering missed photographs is also not the same as a photograph.
Instead of photographing to remember, I try to make photographs that I can learn from. The best portraits I make not only tell me something about the subject but the often tell me even more about myself. I remember when I made these photographs, everything I was thinking about was trying to make an image that would tell me something later. I was not necessarily photographing in the moment, but rather I was photographing looking ahead to how it might make me think when I saw the photograph for the first time. This feeling is probably best explained by the words I say to myself as I make what I believe will be my best photographs. I say, “this is gonna look awesome,” or something along those lines. I don’t say “that, what I just took a picture of, looked awesome as I made the photo.” I am only thinking about how it is going to look later.
I photograph more to learn than to remember. Once I have made and then learned from the photograph, I remember it.











